once bitten twice shy!: A Bird in hand is worth two in a bush

once bitten twice shy!: A Bird in hand is worth two in a bush: Life is a gamble. We always want more than we already have. Somehow just somehow, what somebody else has always looks better than what you h...

A Bird in hand is worth two in a bush

Life is a gamble. We always want more than we already have. Somehow just somehow, what somebody else has always looks better than what you have. A dress, a watch, a car, a house unless in the very truth it isn't. I have done shopping with my girls a few times and we get back to the house, I always feel like they picked better tops, shoes, and I had the same chance to do the same. Anyway, this is a proverb, phrase that captures my life and many others almost on a daily basis and I thought I should one of my many stories.
Rose was a beautiful girl who raised in the surburbs by a single mum who had done a good job by making her life as comfortable as ever. Rose had never used a matatu in her life and did not know the meaning of not being able to afford. Everything was given to her by request and literally her life is what every other child would call smooth sailing.
Unfortunately to Rose it didn't feel the same way, she wanted to spend time with her mum, get to share their day's experience, shop, laugh, cook but that never came to pass. Rose's mum was always busy doing one thing or the other. She had too many friends and no time to spend with Rose. She hired a nanny from when Rose was born and gave her the responsibility of caring for her daughter until now Rose is almost turning 15.
Anna was the name of the nanny. She knew what was going on and she made it her duty to put a smile on Rose's face every time she could. Rose and Anna did not exactly have the best relationship. According to Rose, Anna was just mare nanny and nothing more. No matter how many things she would do, Rose never paid attention and solely wanted the mum's attention.
It was an evening like no other, Rose came home and everything did not seem to be in place. She got really angry because her favourite biscuits were not in the kitchen, there was no tea in the flask, her shoes were dirty from yesterday and the house looked like a mess. She went straight to Anna's room to make a fuss and get to the bottom of the confusion in the house. Anna was on the floor, not moving, her eyes were closed but her body was still warm. Rose became frantic, and ran upstairs to call the ambulance or someone who could help. She had never been in charge of anything, everyone was always taking care of her especially Anna but this time she had to take the lead.
She made the emergency call and ran back to Anna's room to check if she is alive. She had seen in the movies how to check for the heartbeat, she put her fingers on her neck and sensed a slow throb on the neck.
Tears began to fill her eyes, when she realized that Anna may be dying and she had never really gotten to know her. Who was her family? Did she have kids? Where was she really from? Rose had no idea about her nanny's life. She went through her drawers to find something that could give her a clue of who to call. She scrambled through her everything and found a book. Hurriedly, she opened and began to read.
 After a few minutes or so, Rose realized she had been sobbing and was interrupted by the siren of the ambulance. The took her and put her into the ambulance and Rose got in and accompanied them to the hospital. Rose began to realize, Anna had been the only person who paid every attention to her. She made her favorite sandwich, she took her to shop, she taught her how to make muffins although Rose never paid attention. Anna always made a special cake for her on her birthday and somehow managed to get everything from her closet, to her food, schedule sorted at all times and Rose had not even one day paid attention. She always thought that Anna is paid to do those things, she does not need to be congratulated for it.
Rose always wanted her mum's attention which was too much to ask for. She spent most of her life sad because she wanted to have a normal relationship with her mum like everyone else but she did not get exactly what she wanted but got love care and attention from a stranger who is not her biological mum.
Rose is not the only who does this to herself or to others. We want things to work out they way we want. At times we have blessings right by our side but we are too focused in getting what we want and how we want it.
Rose may loose the opportunity of enjoying having a "mum" who is not necessarily the biological mum but plays the part better than most biological mums. This is not the normal story of where things should work according to plan but I believe the most awesome relationships are from the most awkward of situations.
Rose always had a mum, Anna was her mum and her bird in hand.