IDEAL MAN pt 2

Lets just say...my 'guy' supermarket attendant isnt my guy anymore. I was living a sad life and it was getting the best of me and making me have wrinkles at 20. My girls had warned me about it and told me that I deserve better. When we meet with my friends, most of them are talking trips, weekends out, he bought me this, we did that and I didn't have a tale in the world to share except for the fact that I did nothing except fight with my boyfriend because he did not want to go anywhere or do anything fun and maybe the fact that his job is too demanding yet they pay him peanuts so we cannot afford to do much either. I was fed up, when is my life ever going to be fun? I kept asking myself. My life was boring because my boyfriend's life is boring and full of problems. I needed space and a lot of it.
Meanwhile, one of my girls introduced me to a guy called Sam. He was the perfect rebound but I really did not want him to be. He was too cute, financially stable and he always got me with his killer smile. OH MY! this means trouble. Sam, was like my remedy from my sad previous relationship. He was outgoing and I cant remember a weekend since I started seeing him, being in the house. I was in heaven. Everything I ever wanted was at my fingertips. The first month, I did not for one second think about ever going back to my previous life. Sam completed me and I was falling for him like a crazy teenager.
The second month, Ahem... I did not see this coming. I was seated at the balcony of my house and I realized that we have never spend quality time with my new boyfriend Sam. It was always going out, going for rugby games, meeting with pals for drinks not one day was it just the two of us. "This is not right!" I lamented to myself and started planning a date for just the two of us. My idea played perfectly in my head and now it was time to execution. " Sam, I was hoping we could have dinner at my place on Saturday?" I told him excitedly knowing he would agree to my proposal. "Babe, Saturday is the finals of the FA cup, I cant afford to miss that and plus my boys have already planned a trip to Naivasha so we could go hook up with an old boy. Maybe next time!" I was shuttered, why did I not even realized there was a football calendar and there was even a final that the faithfuls cannot miss. I thought to myself it must have been my fault because I did not plan well.
My idea of having a date just the two of us did not materialize and four months are almost down the drain.
I started thinking of my previous relationship, spending time together was never the problem, it was what we were doing that was the problem. I always based the fun part with being out there and doing something outdoor and disregarded that fun can be created.
I fought my previous boyfriend because he could not afford to take me out yet my new guy takes me out all the time but will never stay in with me just once. I complained to my girls a few times and they shunned me away saying, "I thought that what you always wanted!" Yes, that is what I thought I wanted but is it what I really want?
Awful could not describe the way I was feeling and finally I began to realize that this pain I am fighting is not one I could just shun away and go. I was already in love with Sam. My friends  rendez-vous made me believe that my previous relationship wasn't working because I wasn't doing what they were. However, this one should be working. Isn't this what I envied from their relationship? Isn't this what I was running to and believed that I wanted ? Is being just me and him, a problem am creating or is it something I really want?
Did I create a problem where there was none to justify my leaving the previous relationship? Did I leave a perfectly good guy for an 'ideal' one? Who exactly is my Ideal guy? One who wants to be with me or one who wants me to tag along?